abeautiful_mess

big updateeee

2005-08-22T21:00:59Z

alrighttttttt so i havent updated on this thing for a little whileee..

ever since dave and i broke up, i have gotten alot of time to spend with my friendsss .. if i didnt have them, i seriously dont know what i'd have in lifee

i believe i am getting over dave because i realize how selfish of a person he can become and how much he lies .. im not heartbroken anymore and i am actually happy that im not even with him :)

this weekend was one of the best weekends ive ever had in awhile .. saturday i met up with tash and matt and we went out to dinner and then afterwards just drove around .. after that i went over to dave haslers housee .. dave, me, rob, kevin, morgan and this other kid dave went to alicia mussers party .. it was prettty gay so we left after 45 mins of being there .. after that we went to ryan quilleys house and stayed there for about an hour .. thennnn me and dave went back to his house with ben and liz and we just chilled there .. went to wawa and then i went home at 3 am .. i was prettty beat the next dayy

sunday i just layed around .. didnt really do anything .. around 6ish i went to daves house again for his grad. party and then left because i didnt like some of the people there .. i went back home and watched tv and then ashley called me up because she was there with eric so i went back over so it was much bettter .. i just chilled with all the people there and then left and came home around 12..

i had work 9-2 today and i was pretty tireddd .. i have work the rest of this month so it sucks but whatever.. school will be here shortly and i cant waitttttt

as far as my 'love' lifeee , i believe i am falling for someone .. hopefully they are falling for me too :)

big updateee

2005-08-17T15:17:37Z

okay so this is a big update from a couple of days ago since i last wrote in here

me and dave broke up .. his reason was because he didnt want a relationship and he wanted to be on his own .. i didnt really quite understand because he gave me NO warning signs what so ever so i took it very hard yesterd.. i felt as if a piece of me was takin away and that i lost everything .. we were supposed to meet up yesterday but his phone was being gay and the call wouldn't go threw so i dont know when i'll see him next .. i've decided i am going to give back the tiffany's necklace that he got me because if i wear it, it will make me want him even more then i already do and im going to try and move on from this as fast as i can .. there are only a few people who know about it because i dont want everyone knowing because i dont feel like feeling that i need to be pitied because if the situation isnt brought up to me then it will make me think less of him .. i really am pissed off at him because he promised me so much and broke all of his promises .. but hes a guy right? they are supposed to break girls hearts and this is my first REAL heart break ever and it sucks

danae was there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry on and i honestly dont know what i would do without her .. last night we went out and my mind was off of dave and i loved it .. it felt good

so im not sure what im going to do now .. i feel as if i have so much free time now instead of wandering what dave is doing .. i do miss him SO much .. as much as i hate to say it or even think about it but i know i can get threw this .. its going to be hard but i have to do it

but if anything changes i'll update more .. but for now, im going to watch tv

<3333333333333333

2005-08-13T03:04:17Z

so today was greattttt!

i had off work so i got alot done .. i went and got my nails donee and then had to go to pius to pick up the rest of my uniformsss .. my school shoes came in and i love themmm so i dont have to worry about getting anything else so im all set!

after i got home from pius, i layed around because i was so beat .. i took a shower and met my mom at giovanni's for dinner and then came home and dave picked me up and we went to see Four Brothers and it was one of the best movies i have ever seeeen .. afterwards we came back to my house and ate spaghetti and then he left and now im just updating on hereeee

i believe me and dave and maybe dena and ron are all guna go down to the beach next saturday just for the day so i CANT wait to do that .. it should be funnnn

tomorrow i am working 2-7 and im not sure what i am doing at night but i will update laterrrrr <33 goodnitee :)

blahhhhhhhhhhh

2005-08-11T13:33:01Z

welllll so yesterday work was okay .. i went by fast which was surprising because it was slow

i am pretty pissed off with this spring city bridge shit because thats how i got to work everyday and now i have to drive all the way to linfield to get to work which means i have to leave my house 10 minutes earlier .. i dont know if i can survive doing that from 5-8 weeks but i guess i will have to suck it upp

last night after work i went up to jenn's with emily .. we all drank and of course i threw up and went to bed at about 11:30 .. i heard all my crazy stories this morning that i was telling everyone last night and they were pretttty messed up but i guess thats normal to talk about crazy stuff but ya knowwww

today i am working 12-7 and im not sure what im doing tonight .. im probablly just staying in for the night because i am beattttttttttttttt but i will update laterrr <33

yesterday / last nightttt

2005-08-10T14:10:23Z

so yesterday was a pretty good dayyy..

i got up around 9:30ish and did some of my summer reading and then took a shower.. i went up to the cov. mall to go pick up shana from work at 3 and then we had to go to Giant to get my mom some things from the store .. after that we went back to my house and dropped all the stuff off and went down to KOP.. we were walking around and saw caren genet and amanda so we ended up going to bahama breeze with them for dinner .. it was gooood

afterwards, i took shana home and came home and watched the real world and then went to beddd

today i am working 12-7 and im not sure what im doing for tonight but i will update laterrrrr

blahhhh

2005-08-09T15:40:41Z

alrighty so i havent updated for a couple dayssss

my weekend was pretty boring .. i worked and i think i hung out with dave one of the days and i cant really remember what else i did ..

yesterday and today i have NO work and im loving it .. i can get bored sometimes but its nice just relaxing and not really having to worry about anything .. tomorrow i work 12-7 and thursday i work 2-7 and then im off friday which is niceeee

yesterday i went to the mall with caren and i tried looking for school shoes but i had no luck so we went to abercrombie and both bought sweatshirtsss .. mines white and its soo comfyy .. after that we went to my house so i could change and we ate lunch and then went and picked shana boo uppp .. we chilled at my house until dave came over around 8 and him and i went to dinner at applebees .. it was niceeeee .. after that we came back home and of course i got into one of my dumb moods where i was moody and i started to cry over absolutely nothing .. i told him i felt as if i dont see him alot anymore and that i wish he would just call more often but earlier last night i told him its nice to not see him for 2 days and then to be with him because it shows how much we like being around eachother so i apologized to him for being selfish so everything is coool now

today im not sure what im doinggg .. i may hang out with caren but im not pos. yet but i will update laterrrrr

<3

2005-08-05T03:25:44Z

alrightyyyy soo yesterday was pretty goood .. i worked 2-7 and then went home and slept like usual and later on dave came over .. we went to giant because i had to get shampoo and then we went back to the house and watched some of napoleon dynamite until he had to leaveeeee

today i worked 8-2 .. it went by pretty fast which was nicee .. i came home and fell asleep again .. i was veryy naucious and i think i may be having an allergic reaction to my medicine because its making my throat feel very tight so im sure i am so now i have to deal with the doctors again .. yuckkkkk.. later on i took a shower and i went down to the mall with my momm .. i got 2 pairs of clogs from AE, one pair are tan and the others are plaid .. they are really cuteee.. i also got a pair of sweatpants and the gavin degraw and def leppard collection cd's and some eddie bauer perfumeeee .. we then went to dinner and i came home, met up with caren and we went to wawa because i had to get gassss .. afterwards we stopped at nelsons and then came home and watched chitty chitty bang bangggg

nowwwww i am sitting here doing nothingg and i am very tired so i think i will go to bedddd

tomorrow i work 2-7 and im not sure what im doing at night but ill update laterrr .. goodnite! <3

yuckkkk

2005-08-03T02:51:31Z

i feel like im about to throw up in a second and i wish i would so i can get this feeling out of meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

tonight was nice .. dave came over around 5ish .. we went to my work really quick because my mom wanted me to get her tomatoes so we did that and then came back to the house .. he had to leave around 7 because he had to help his dad with some stuff so he promised we would hang out tomorrow night so we will see about thatt

later on tonight i slept again and then watched real world.. now im just updating on here and getting ready to go to bed because i feel like shitttt

tomorrow i am working 2-7 .. i havent gone tanning in about 3 days and i must say i am proud of myself but that will stop once i go and buy another month tomorrow so but i will not go every day so ill still be proud of myself :) but i am going to bed! goodnite <33

blahhhh

2005-08-02T19:46:57Z

alright soo yesterday was a chill dayy

i got up around 9 and went out to breakfast with dena .. it was niceeee .. afterwards , i dropped her off and went home and showered and went to cosco with my mom to get some things

i had been feeling really tired lately and we noticed a ring around my arm which seemed to be a sign of lyme disease so my mom made a doctors appoinment for me and we went and they said i had it so now i have to take these pills twice a day for 21 days and i hate themm .. they make me feel like im going to throw up but hopefully i get better soon because all i ever feel like doing is sleeping

i went into work at 4 and worked till 7 and came home and showered and layed on the couch .. i went to bed at 9:30 and then i didnt sleep good last night so of course i felt like even more shit today

i worked today 8-2 and it went by fast which was good .. after work i had to go to the office and pick up the dog and i came home and layed down and now im just updating before i go back and lay down

tonight im not sure what im doing .. hopefully hanging out with dave but i will update laterrrr

<33

2005-08-01T03:22:29Z

soo tonight was veryyy funnn

i went to the haslers to get some dinner and then left around 8ish .. dave then came over and since i havent been feeling well, he layed down .. i think i may have got bitten by something because there is a bulls eye around a place on my arm so hopefully it isnt lime disease because i have been very tired the past two days and out of it so i believee i am going to get tested tomorrow so hopefully nothing is wronggg

dena and ron came over later on and us 4 went to mcdonalds because we were hungryyy .. they left and me and dave came back to the house and cuddled on the couch till he had to gooo

tomorrow i think i am going to go out to breakfast with denaaa and then i work 2-7 so im not sure what im doing tomorrow night .. depends on how i feeel .. but i will update laterrr .. goodnite! :)

blahhhhh

2005-07-31T20:10:24Z

my weekend :

friday i worked 10-4 and it went by fast which was niceee .. i came home and showered and then went to the movies with dena and danae and saw wedding crashers .. it was funnyyy as shit .. afterwards me and dena went up to the fair and stayed for about an hour and left because it was pretty gayyyy .. i dropped her off and then went to bed because i was beatttt

saturday i worked 2-7 and it was sooo busy so the day went by fast and i loved it .. i came home, showered and then dave came and picked me up and we went to the fair for a little and talked to some people and then left around 9ish because we were hungryyy .. we went to applebees and it was gooood .. we went back to my house and just layed down because we were tiredd

today i worked 9-2:30 and it was crazy busy .. i went tanning and then came home and now im just resting because my feet are killing meeeeeeee .. im not positive what is going on for tonight, but ill update laterrrr <3 cyahhh

<33

2005-07-28T03:22:26Z

alright so today was a nicee dayyy .. i worked 9-2 and i went by veryyy fast which was good ..

i left work and went tanning .. then picked up caren and she went with me to go clean my car out so now it looks 100% betterrrr .. after that we went back to my house for a little and then i took her home around 5:30ish before the storm came .. i came back home, took a shower and then dave came over around 6:30 .. we just watched a movie with my brother and then we went to nelsonsss

after that we went down to the fair and checked it out and saw danae and ryan there so we talked to them for a little bit .. we left and came home and i didnt have my keys with me cause i left them on my bed so i had to go to my moms friends house and get keys which was annoyingggg

so we came back to the house and just layed up in my room on my bedd and cuddled for a little

now im just chillin hereee and im tired .. tomorrow i work 2-7 and then im not sure what im doing afterwards but ill update laterrr <3 cyahhhh

<3

2005-07-25T03:00:08Z

sooo today i worked 9-2 .. it was crazyyy and very busy which was cool because it went by very fasttt

i came home and family members were over for awhile .. i took a shower and then spent some time with them and then dave came over arond 5:30 and stayed till 6:30 cause he had to go to his g-moms housee .. i just layed around my house because i was beatttt .. around 10 dave came back over and we just layed on the steps again and kissed .. i know it sounds gay but we find the oddest placess :) butt tomorrow i am working 2-7 and im not sure what im doing tomorrow night but i will update laterrr

goodnitee! <3

:) :) :)

2005-07-24T12:18:59Z

alright so yesterday was a prettty goood dayyy

i had to wake up early and go to a piano make-up lesson and then i went tanning and came home and layed around ..

dave called me around 1:15 to see what i was doing and he came over and he was holding a tiffanys bag in his hand and he gave me it ... i opened it and it was a tiffanys necklace and its sooo pretty! it is all the links around it and then an open heart in the middle .. its really niceeeee

so after that i went to work and got home around 7:45 .. i showered and layed around .. dave came over around 9:40 so it wasnt that much time to hang out but it was a good timeee

i work today 9-2 and then have some family party thing here at my house so i will update laterrrr! byee! <3

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2005-07-23T15:45:15Z

yesterday was a goood dayyyy .. i worked 8-2 and it went by pretty fast

i came home and just layed around and then took a shower and headed over to carens around 5ish to chill with her and shana .. we ate some fooood and then we went out bowling ..

i won both gamesss and then we left around 7:30 and headed up to target to see if i could find a CD but i couldntt .. we left and then went to the pool hall and played 2 games and it blew so caren took shana home and then we went to DQ and chilled there for a little .. i came home and went to bed because i was beatttt

i had to get up early this morning and go to a piano make-up lesson at 10 and it wasnt too bad .. afterward i went tanning and now im doing my wash before i have to go to work .. i work till 7 and im not sure what im doing tonight .. hopefully hanging out with daveeee .. he told me he got me something and im dying to know what it is so maybe ill find out tonight .. ill update laterrr! :) byeeee

<3333

2005-07-22T02:40:52Z

so today was a greatttt dayyyy

i worked 9-2 and it went fast which was nice ..

i went home, got changed and went to camelot to get my hair cut and colored .. my hair color is like a dark chocolate, same as last time and i just got all my dead ends cut off so it looks so much better now!

after that i went home and then went tanning and came back and showered .. dave came and picked me up around 7:30 and we went down to the mall and then he took me out to dinnerr so it was niceee

i just got home not to long ago and i am tiredddd!

tomorrow i work 8-2 and then i will be hanging out with caren and shana booooooo so i def. am excited about that because i havent seen shana in forever .. but im guna go to bed since i have to get up early tomorrow .. goodnitee! <#

:)

2005-07-21T03:56:29Z

so today was a pretty good dayyyy

i worked 9-2, then went tanning and then caren came over my house and we went swimming and layed out by the pool and talkeddd

we ate dinner and we couldnt find anything to do so around 9:30, we went to wal-mart and i bought mascara, eye liner and this neutrogena lip stufff .. we left around 10 and came back to my house and did nothingggg

tomorrow i work 9-2 and then i am getting my hair cut and coloredddd so i cant wait because its looked like shit for the past month .. im not sure what im doing afterwards .. i may hang out with davee but im not positive yet but hopefully!

but im guna go to beddd .. i will update laterr.. goodniteee <3

tonighttt

2005-07-20T04:13:10Z

welll tonight turned out perfectttt :)

earlier, i was in a very weird mood to where i just broke down and cried for basically no reason what so ever and this wasnt the first time this has happened but i just get into my moods where i am very sensitive and very emotional, so while i was on my way driving to carens and crying, dave called and met me at the Sly Fox parking lot and just talked to me on why i was crying and i told him i didnt know why and how i just didnt ever want to lose him so i was happy to have him there to wipe my tears away and to hug me so that made me all better

soooo after i was done crying, me and dave headed over to carens and chilled there till around 10:45ish when we had to leave, but it was a fun nightttt

tomorrow i work 9-2 and i believe after work i am hanging out with caren so that should be funnnn

ill update later though because i need to get up earlier.. goodniteee <3

la la laaa

2005-07-19T15:46:46Z

so last night was pretty chilll .. i met up with caren, genet, kristen and drew at DQ and then we went over to some kids house where steve cook, dave ergott and some other sf people were there .. i left around 8ish and then went up to nelsons with jenn, robbie, chelsea, jaime and jess from work and got my vanilla milkshake of courseeee

around 8ish dave called and told me he was on his way over and wanted to swim so i left and went home and we went swimminggg .. it was fun .. i just loveee being with him .. after we got out of the pool we changed and just sat on the stairs and kissed .. i knowww its pretty corny :)

today i had piano at 10:30 and surprisingly i did a pretty good job so i was in a good mood when i walked out .. i went tanning and now im just sitting here updating and im guna go practice my piano and do some washh

i have work from 2-7 and then i think dave said something about hanging out but we will seee .. ill update laterrr !

hmmm

2005-07-18T19:35:45Z

yesterday i got up about 9:30 and layed around and did absolutely nothing .. i went tanning and had to go get dave a graduation card card .. i came back home and showered and did nothing else until i had to get ready for his grad. party

i went to daves grad party at 3 and stayed there till 7 .. it was nice meeting the rest of his family members and just seeing him since i was away on vacation .. i went back to his house to help him drop some stuff off and then i left and came home and layed down

around 9 dave came over and we went to nelsons and saw sarah and lauren there so i talked to them for a little and then dave and i came back to the house and cuddled in the basementtt .. it felt soo good to be with him because i missed him like crazy!

today i worked 8-2 and it was pretty busy .. i went and deposited my check, went tanning and then picked up my puppy from the office and now im home just chillinggg

i dont know what is going on for tonight but ill update laterr ..cyahhh :)

BiG UPDATEEEE !

2005-07-17T00:31:42Z

alright sooo i havent updated in about a week or so because i was on vacation at south carolina, myrtle beach

it was nice to get away from royersford for a little while and i had a blasttt with danaee

we left friday night and drove to virginia and we slept at a hotel and got up early the next morning and drove the rest of the way down to where we were staying .. we stayed in a condo and it was pretty nicee, you could sit on the balcony and look out at the beach and it was really pretttyyy

the drive going down and coming back was a bitch ... going down we got stuck in traffic for about an hour and on our way home today we got stuck in even more traffic and bad weather but im happy to be home .. i sorta missed alot of things like dave because i basically havent been able to see him for like two weeks but i survived and i just cant wait to see him! tomorrow is his graduation party so i get to be with him for awhile so i get to look forward to thattt

since im home from vacation, on monday i will work every single day till the end of the month but i need the money so i wont even complain about workinggg!

but i am beatttttttttttt so i am going to go lay down and i will update later on tomorroww. bye ! :)

:)

2005-07-08T03:30:27Z

alrighttt so tonight was goooood

dave came over around 8 and we went to nelsons and i had to go to block buster to drop off my moviess .. afterwards we came back to my house and just chilled before i leave for south carolina .. i know i will miss him but im not going to let it ruin my vacation because its only a week and im sure i can go threw another week without him so i definantly cant wait to go on this vacation with danaee and im sure there will be some very awesome timesss to come!

right now i am doing my wash so i cant really go to bed so i will be up for awhilee .. blahhhh

i work tomorrow 10-4 and then i am leaving work and picking up danae and then coming back to my house and around 5 we are leaving and driving to virginia to sleep over there and then we are getting up early saturday morning and driving the rest of the way so it will be a tiering 2 dayss but i wont have any time to update before i leave so i will talk to you guys when i get backk! cyahh!

<333

2005-07-07T19:10:57Z

so yesterday was a greattt dayy

i worked 9-3, left and then went with danae so she could get her nails and pedicure donee

after we were done that, we went back to her house and ate dinner and then i wanted to go to the mall so i could get something for dave because of his grad party coming upp .. we left and i called dave and he was home so he came over to danaes

i was sooo glad to see him .. i mean i know a week isnt long but it felt like 2 weeks for me so as soon as he got out of his car i ran up to him and hugged and kissed him foreverrrr :) .. he left and then i called him when i got home which was around 10 so then he stopped over with zach and we just chilled for a half hourrr

today i had to work 9-2 and it went by pretty fast.. i went tanning and now im home just resting

i think i am hanging out with dave tonight once he gets done work around 5 so it will be my last time to see him till i get back from south carolinaaa

i leave tomorrow night around 5ish with danaee and i am pretty excitedd .. but i need to go start packing so i will update later on tonight! cyahh!

la la laa

2005-07-05T14:29:11Z

alright so last night was pretty funnnn

me, caren and genet went to waltz to watch the fire works.. i met up with jessie and some of her friends and they were all really nicee .. the fireworks were beautifulll .. we got a nice park job except it was a bitch to get out of so we sat waiting for the traffic to move for about an hour ... i was past my curfew but my parents didnt really care which was cool .. we sat chril pool and brandon tran there so they needed a ride home and me being the nice person that i am gave both of them a ride home .. i didnt get home till 11:40 so i was pretty beat

i got up this morining at 9:50 and now im doing nothing except talking to danaeeee .. we leave for south carolina on friday and i cant wait!! even though i only get to see dave for a day and then i leave, it was be fun as shitttt

today i have OFF work so im thrilled about that .. im in a little bit im going to take a shower and then go get my nails and pedicure done and then go tannn .. around 3ish the girls are coming over to hang out and have a girls night so that should be funnnn buttt im guna go take a shower now and take care of all this stuff so i will update later .. cyah!

happpppyyy 4th of julyyy :)

2005-07-04T23:29:09Z

alright sooooo the last time i updated was a couple days ago .. nothing new has been going on .. just working about everyday and tomorrow i have off!

friday night my mom and i had to take my puppy to the vet because he ate a flip flop and was throwing up and they had to do surgery because of the pieces that he had swallowed .. hes better now, but hes just all stitched uppp .. after that i went to the country club with my mom to meet my brother and dad there and the haslers and i ate dinner and then left and came home

saturday i got up and went tanning and talked to tash before i had to go to workk .. i worked 2-7 and then i went out to dinner with my boss, her husband, jenn and stosh to tgi's and got home at 11

sunday i worked 2-7 and after work we had a picnic and my boss made all this good foooood .. i left work around 10:30 and came home and went to bedd

today i worked 9-2:30 and we were sooo busy so now im beat .. i went to carens for a little and john and genet were there .. i left around 6 and came home and watched the real world

tonight im going to waltz with caren and genet and im meeting jessie there and maybe tash so that should be funnn

DAVE COMES HOME IN 2 DAYSSSSS :) i cannot wait!

ill update later thoughhh .. cyahhh dudessss